Blogging excuses
I found hundreds of excuses to start blogging even though I was
thinking, wanting and speaking a lot about it. What name to choose, colors, all
computing aspects, etc. ...
As soon as I posted my first article I became hooked on writing. I am
thinking of the topics and how to express my thoughts clearly. I want to be
precise and be close to my real experiences and facts. Also, I am trying to
figure out and find answers why I feel this or the other way. It is a
reflection of what is going on and it helps me to identify what happened, why I
did this or that. It gives me strengths and I can go for my goals without
bothering myself about additional too much. Why did I delay writing for so
long? It’s easy to write blog as soon as you have the first post. I thought
about too many obstacles before I started.
Blog or any kind of diary is extremely beneficial to have when you are
abroad or you sign up for a project. EVS is exactly that. So many things were
going on in my head during all this year, new insights, understandings,
disappointments. I created my philosophies and I wanted to share it with
others. I shared my observations with my flatmate. My thoughts and ideas were
flying fast. One thought changed the other very fast and they were even
contradictory, opposing one another. In these cases I couldn’t understand
myself well. These were confusion moments or inspiration coming from outside.
My values were triggered many times. Writing a diary helps to catch those
thoughts and record them. It is very important to catch the moment when they
just flow. I wanted to sort them in an article but I realized that they are
fragmented and may make no sense on the particular moment. However, they add up
to a nice story of self development. Writing and recording mental procedures
whatever my mind creates is my personal story. It can be evaluated at the end
having all picture. I didn’t let it go freely in the start but I still reflect
when I came back from EVS.